every day the sun still rises
even though you’re gone
can’t help but wonder why it does that,
as I struggle to carry on
I do my usual household chores:
I cook, hang laundry on the line
people tell me I look tired
I lie with a smile – tell them that “I’m fine”
& I wonder why I lie,
when for their thought I don’t give a toss
tell me what to do, Mommy
how do I deal with your loss?
I know how much you missed me,
cause I lived so far away
but distance did not steal our love,
& you still lived, so I was okay
& now I’m lost, Mommy
I’ve passed depression or feeling blue
how do I go on without you –
tell me Mommy, what do I do?
your passing has revived
all my ancient childhood fears
I’m crying in my sleep,
my pillow sags with tears
you were an awesome mother,
the best any kid ever had
it’s as if my heart’s stopped beating,
my life’s now bleak & sad
I hope you hear me, Mommy,
when I talk to you each day
our conversations were unfinished –
so much I didn’t get to say
for the remainder of my life
your absence I will rue
tell me, please, Mommy,
now what do I do?
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