I keep waking
my hands shaking
getting dressed,
button holes defy me
time speaks a new language
as days fly by me
feels like my soul
is no longer whole
& it keeps raining
3 days of endless night
a bottomless pit
where I can find no light
off I trot
face wet & hot
all my meds
my doctor has doubled
but they heal nothing
my heart remains troubled
just one more touch
I’m smoking too much
so unconcerned
if I should die
all cares, all sorrows
away they’d fly
feels like I’m failing
flailing
one foot in front of the other
through air that’s foul & dense
trying hard to come to terms
with a world that makes no sense
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